Have you ever been in a situation where you were at someones complete mercy?

Someone in this situation could be called a desperate person. Desperation often leads to despair. I am going to talk about this.

I am in a situation where I am looking for an Architectural Engineering Job. I apply to companies. I submit my resume which contains basically everything that qualifies me as a candidate for the position to the company and it is judged to whatever standard. So far I have not had any job offers. I am completely at someone else's mercy and its uncomfortable for me.

I kinda have this desire to be the hero in the movie of The Life of Joseph. Whenever I am in a situation where I have no control I always imagine myself having control... I imagine myself being smarter than I am... knowing things I don't know... being stronger than I am... In my fantasies I understand people... I am smart I work hard I am good with words... In other words I get a great Job, the girl of my dreams, and friends who would do anything for me and I for them. In my fantasy If I am in a desperate situation... I somehow get out of it.

I think this is human nature to fantasize about things like that... there are 10000000 books and movies to testify to that fact.

The funny thing about this is that I am a Christian. I say I believe that I am 100 percent reliant on Gods grace and mercy through for my salvation. I also believe that God has a plan for me and that as I go though my journey in this world It is my desire to live a life that glorifies God. In doing that I must recognize the dependence I have on the sacrifice of Jesus and the Lords Provision. Despair is not a part of Christian Life

2Co 4:7-8 But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair

I think that this is a big issue for many Christians. I think that is why in the Bible there is so much discussion on Faith and works. We often idolize people who are Faithful... who put everything away to be obedient to God, but the people we idolize tend to be those who put themselves in harms way for the gospel or give away all their money. The true prize of living life on earth as a Christian is the knowledge that we have everything we could ever need through Jesus and that we can trust Him to be faithful to his promise. This is why many followers of God in the bible do 'crazy' things because they don't have their hope in money or comfort or friends.

2Co 4:16 So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.
2Co 4:17 For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison,
2Co 4:18 as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

While I subscribe to this idea... it is much harder for me and I believe most people than to live like that is the truth than it is to say it is the truth. This is hard because things really do have consequences... and even transient consequences are scary... So how do we deal with this? I will share with you what I have learned... hopefully it makes sense...


We have many needs and God said he will provide for us one of those needs is for relationship. One form of relationship is a friendship Friendship requires a couple things... first it needs at least two people, it needs communication, it needs caring and love. If you don't have these ingredients chances are you don't have a friend. I had many friends in college... it was so easy for me to make friends there, Somehow I became close with more people than I have ever been in my entire life... and it involved being with people talking to them. Now unfortunately for me I attributed my friendships to my winning personality... when in reality these precious relationships were gifts from God... I thought my odd ball sense of humor, niceness and whatever other traits I had somehow acquired those friends. While it is probably true that if I was boring and gloomy and stayed in my room all the time... I would have never made those friends I really didn't think of them as gifts from God. I could make a friend pretty much whenever I wanted. Now I am separated from my friends and its not as easy to make friends for me as it was then. I feel that I am at others peoples mercy. So I guess that is what this Post is supposed to be about.

If you have a close friend give thanks to God... its not possible without him, if you are full of food give thanks to God... its not because you worked for its a gift, if you are rested give thanks to God it is a gift, if you have a job give thanks to God. If you have none of these things... give thanks to God... he gave Himself to us so that we may have eternal life. There is no room for despair in a Christians heart...

So do not despair when there is nothing you can do... trust God... Let us hold fast the the Hope we profess for he who promised is faithful. We are in loving hands. Treasure every gift... seize every opportunity to receive the blessings that God has for us... too often I have not

Here is a Psalm That I like... I think it kinda relates...




Psa 143 A Psalm of David. Hear my prayer, O LORD; give ear to my pleas for mercy! In your faithfulness answer me, in your righteousness! Enter not into judgment with your servant, for no one living is righteous before you. For the enemy has pursued my soul; he has crushed my life to the ground; he has made me sit in darkness like those long dead.Therefore my spirit faints within me; my heart within me is appalled.I remember the days of old; I meditate on all that you have done; I ponder the work of your hands.I stretch out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land. Selah Answer me quickly, O LORD! My spirit fails! Hide not your face from me, lest I be like those who go down to the pit.Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for in you I trust. Make me know the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Deliver me from my enemies, O LORD! I have fled to you for refuge! Teach me to do your will, for you are my God! Let your good Spirit lead me on level ground! For your name's sake, O LORD, preserve my life! In your righteousness bring my soul out of trouble! And in your steadfast love you will cut off my enemies, and you will destroy all the adversaries of my soul, for I am your servant.